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Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche in Quick Charcoal
By William Gilkerson
(Recounted at the request of Walter Fordham for the Chronicles of CTR)
CTR in two-minute charcoal
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I met Rinpoche in 1971, becoming a student of his soon after, and for life. During the course of it, he assigned to me an eclectic array of different tasks and challenges. One of these was to make portrait sketches of him as he went about his business of the moment. Typically, I would get a summons, sometimes when he was delivering a talk nearby and it was easy to get to him, but he didn’t hesitate to telephone from, for instance, Colorado, putting me on an airplane at short notice. Military venues were costumed with uniforms, many kinds; lectures were mostly suit and tie; for a bedroom event, messing with my mind, he wore nothing at all; for a session during which he made calligraphy, he wore Zen robes and his hair in a Japanese topknot.
This was his costume when I sketched my favourite of all the drawings that I made of him. I discarded a lot more elaborate attempts than I kept, but this particular little two-minute, unfinished toss-off was a happy accident and a keeper for sure. At the time, I couldn’t wait to show it to him. His usual reaction to my work was to examine it piece by piece in stony silence, acknowledging things only with an inscrutable “Hmmm,” nothing else.
Handing him my proud little drawing, I hoped for a less lethargic response this time, maybe even a tickle of praise, although I was braced for any kind of criticism. Line work, style, composition, all were open to it, hopefully something—anything. He studied the picture for a while.
“Hmmm” came his inevitable comment.
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Makkyi Rabjam
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Only much later did his reviews start to come in, and they were all carom shots bounced off sangha chums of old, never directly to me. “He told me you’re the only artist who ever captured his essence,” reported a grinning old student who had written down the quote. Then the same message trickled in from other sources, bathing me in warm, molten honey in a way that no doubt would have wrinkled my teacher’s nose.
Thereafter, I framed my remaining pictures—those I hadn’t given to friends or discarded for lack of merit—and hung them through the house. Most prominent was the quick calligraphic little sketch that I had liked from the beginning. Quite shamelessly, I had fallen in love with a piece of my own work. For one thing, it reminded me that whatever expected art lessons I hadn’t got were in my dreams, and my teacher’s intended instructions were in modelling, not drawing. Or so it seemed. He never told me that, but he demonstrated it throughout every meeting, talk, whatever the session, by taking a comfortable pose at the outset, and returning to it, like the out-breath after every diversion. While he was gesticulating, talking, shifting, I had time to fill in the static details while waiting for the foundational pose again. Unlike the unstirring model of a figure-drawing class, or the rigid subject of a formal portrait, this model was always animated, never static, yet reliably back where wanted for the portrait’s sake. Lessons to be sure, I reflected, looking at my enshrined little drawing over the years.
What’s your own favourite of your Rinpoche pictures?” asked the Vajra Regent Osel Tendzin, during a visit to Martin’s River, and I told him. “Will you give it to me?” he asked at once, and I did, after some anguished hesitation. “Thank you,” he said. It was a raucous dinner party, and I trusted he would forget about the picture as an evening of emptied bottles played out. Finally departing, during farewells at the door, he turned to an attendant: “Mr. Gilkerson will give you the picture that he gave me earlier.” And that was that.
Or so it seemed at the time. During my period of mourning for the lost icon, I fretted that I had never made a reproduction and asked to borrow it back for that purpose, whereon it was returned. After making the photo-copies, I felt no great rush to return the original. By then, the Regent had got quite a lot of other things to deal with; also he was preparing to move and it seemed very unlikely that during his last days in Nova Scotia he would have any thought to spare for an insignificant little picture..
This was mistaken. “The Regent wants to know when you’re going to return his drawing of the Vidyadhara” came the voice of a secretary on the phone. So, back it went again, as trucks were being loaded with his possessions, bound for California where he planned a permanent retreat. I later heard that the truck with most of his pictures was burned in a road accident with full loss. And that, seemingly, was the end of it at last.
But it wasn’t. Some months after the regent’s death, my little picture showed up by complete surprise, via courier, in fine condition, like Lassie Come Home, with a note from his main care giver at the end, to whom he had left it. “I thought you might like to have this back,” she commented.
© 2009 William Gilkerson
By the way,
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