Tribute to Del Riddle

Lost track of Del (now I have really lost track)

2008-04-01T13:26:00.000-03:00

I met Del when he came to Cambridge, MA to open the Shambhala
Bookstore. I was completing a wine bar renovation right underneath
the store and Del gave me my next project, small renovations of the
bookstore. We became fast friends. He was always a pleasure to be
around, generous and humorous, and as others have posted, very relaxed.

I last saw Del when I visited him at his home on the seacoast north
of Boston where he had gone to manage Element Books. He told me that
he would soon be doing a 3-year retreat, and unfortunately, we lost
contact with each other.

This morning I was looking up the exact date of CTR's passing and
then went on to other sites and saw the news. He was too young to
go, and I will miss him greatly.

Neil Murray
Bellows Falls, VT

For Delbert

2007-12-04T23:02:00.000-04:00

Shadowless trees standing naked
Circles of light glistening
Books no longer have meaning
In the feast of no-self

-Sam Bercholz

Letting Go

2007-11-27T00:37:00.001-04:00

I first met Del in 1969 when I arrived in Los Angeles fresh from college. We ended up sharing a communal house for two years on top of a hill in Santa Monica. Those were heady times for spiritual seekers. Del always seemed to be the first of our group to discover a new guru in town, get initiated, and then convince the rest of us to join in. He was a true seeker from the start. When Trungpa Rinpoche arrived on the scene our "shopping around" was over.

Del and I continued to interweave closely through each other's lives over the decades. We stayed in contact with a light touch that carried a lot of love. At times I felt pushed by him to be more outrageous, more honest. Sometimes this pushing had a darkness, a fierceness, tangled up with alcohol. At other times we shared an expansive view of the present moment -- elegant and completely awake. Throughout it all he was one of the people in my life that I could always count on to be present -- to listen well -- to encourage my spirit.

Over the years Del moved through a series of jobs, usually involved with books or publishing. Occasionally there were gaps when he would collect unemployment for six months or so. I was always amazed at his lack of anxiety during these transitional times. He relaxed into the open space, free of the need to accomplish anything, spending days sitting at cafes, perusing the paper, puttering around his house. He had this ability to trust that things would work out, that the world would provide -- and it always did. At the end of his life this fundamental relaxation served him well. He faced death directly and simply. He said he felt sad that this was happening, and yet, it was okay. The smoothness of his exit reverberates deep inside me. May we all trust -- and let go -- with such grace.

Barbara Bash

Del

2007-11-26T20:17:00.001-04:00

Del and I first crossed paths in 1971 in Los Angeles where we both met the Vidyadhara. Subsequently we knew each other casually during the various Dharma Art installations and other dharma programs, but it wasn't until he moved to Boulder, seven years ago, to run the Trident Cafe's bookstore, that we became good friends. Del had a rich and varied history as a Catholic, a Mormon, a follower of Ramana Maharshi, and on and on. He finally found his heart's path as a Buddhist practitioner, a student of the Vidyadhara and more recently a student of Lama Tharchin Rinpoche. A deeply devoted practitioner, Del also had a wonderful appreciation of Taoist poetry, not to mention a broad understanding of the literary and contemporary world. He was a book man and as such earned his livelihood in the publishing industry. I had the marvelous opportunity to spend much time with him over the past five years, and when he got word this spring, that he had terminal leukemia, it brought us even closer. My good friend and dharma brother Douglas Penick also made a close connection with Del, so the three of us spent countless hours drinking tea and coffee and discussing the sorry state and the beauty of the world.

Del was a very contained man who always seemed to know exactly what he wanted. He never shied away from the fact that his time was very limited, but rather was able to be fully in his skin. He was at times a bit of a curmudgeon, but always seemed concerned about others and always inquisitive. He never hesitated to let people know his feelings even if they were contentious at times, but he never seemed to hold onto a grudge. About three months back he told me of a dream he had. A handsome tall black man in white silk robes accompanied by a black panther appeared. He looked directly at him before he walked away. Del felt it was death paying a preliminary visit.

As Del's health failed, Douglas and I would check in with him everyday. What struck me about Del was, he never complained, he never was emotionally needy, so any assistance we gave was almost pro forma, very ordinary, never a sense of a big deal. He had a near invisible footprint. Having taken care of his affairs, Del was as clearly ready to face the passage from the known to the unknown. He received many blessings and lots of dutsi. In fact, Del said if he was to write an autobiography he would title it: Dope to Dutsi, the Story of Del.

Two weeks ago Del's health plunged. Susan Spaulding, his ex-wife, took him to the hospital. He was transferred the next day to hospice. Susan, Douglas and I accompanied him. He was very talkative and energized, interacting with the hospital and hospice staff. I was sitting with him when the hospice doctor and nurse met with him. The doctor asked him what his agenda was and his wishes. He said with great clarity of speech that he was there to have a good death. He told them he was not afraid to die and that being a buddhist practitioner for 37 years he had already died many times. He requested peace and quiet and wanted sufficient morphine so he would not be distracted with the pain. He was like someone looking forward to an adventure. He repeated that he was not afraid to die. Shortly afterwards he told Susan, Douglas and me that he was tired and wanted to rest. Douglas asked him if he wanted anything from his home. He said no. He was a man without baggage ready for express check-in. He lovingly dismissed us, and shortly afterwards fell into a semi-comatose state. I spoke to Lama Tharchin who instructed me to tell him that he loved him, and he should return home, to go to the Copper Colored Mountain of Padmasambhava and he would meet him there. Del died the next day, quietly and with dignity.

Teachers can show us the way, but a friend and vajra brother, like Del, can be the greatest teaching by example, by their life and their death.

Good journey dear friend, I have no doubt.

Ken Green
Boulder, Colorado
November 25, 2007

It was such good fortune to get to know Del

2007-11-26T20:07:00.000-04:00

It was such good fortune to get to know Del and to be able to spend so much time with him over this last year. Mostly he, Ken and I just sat in coffee shops looking at, occasionally commenting on the changing seasons, the hi-jinks of the passers by, whatever. Sitting with him, it all just felt like we were watching a wide deep river flow slowly by, bearing whatever it did, carrying it away. "Really, they're all just so scared," he remarked about a blustering group of college students sitting near us. Whether his observations were matter of fact, tart or tender, he held his mind very lightly. He was an exemplary yogi, a credit to his teachers and a wonderful
friend.

He rarely wrote poems, but he sent this one in early May:

Immersing this face
In the cool deep sky
A wake-up wash
In an ebony bowl

This skin glistening with stars
This breath a warm wind
Across a pale moon.

- from Douglas Penick